Two Days Ago

I came home
And saw flowers
(since withered)
On the table
Read the card
With a simple message
Signed with his name
And wept
And have been weeping ever since
Because I know now
How very little I mean to you
And how far the distance is between us
And how you'll never understand me
And how you'll never read this
And I must now take action
But not now.
No, not now
But later
Now...
I am still not done weeping.

Valentine's Day

I am full of
ideas
love
senstivity
I am ignored
a recluse
in this house
and in this mind
I have crossed
borders
bridges
lines
To try to get through
to get heard
I cast a shadow
one that you can't see
because you banished me
to walk behind you
I am not inconsequential
unimportant
though you deemed me so
And one day
One day
I will wake up
go out the door
step into the sunshine
I will vow
to never walk behind again
shut myself up
allow myself
to be shut out

I am so much stronger
Than you give me credit for