Useless Late Night Ramblings. I'm tired tonight.

The dark... always comes back
After the burning light of the sun
Casting shadows
Casting light on the worst parts of you
The night will come soon
Shh... Just hold on
And so here is night
Drenched in the silence
And you're not thinking
Not thinking about anything
But your head still hurts
And that's all you know
And sometimes.. nights like these
You realize
You're in unfamiliar territory
Somewhere you never thought you'd be
Navigating without a map or a compass
Scared
Terrified
Nothing feels real
Nothing feels normal
And then you realize
You miss it
Those times when you knew
What to do with the night
What to do with yourself
When the only communicating you needed to do
Was moderated by the blade
That was far more articulate
Than you ever can be
Just another useless failing
And exhaustion sets in
No longer can you stay up all night
And when you awake
Day will come
And the new old routine
Starts all over again
Its hard to speak
When after all the encouragement
They shut you up
Words like a hammer
Smashing your heart
To smithereens