Hibernate

Go because I must
Do things because I can't not
There are no options
And I am hateful
Yet grateful
Because in my nihilistic existence
My only goal
Is to not break their hearts
But I can't see anything
Under the snow
And would rather hide
Under blankets
With the lights out
Blind to the world
And my heart
Drifting into peaceful sleep
With vivid dreams
Until I dreamt no more