She told me
She wants me to take care of myself
Slow down
Sleep
Eat
And I want to
I do
But alone
Alone I can't
I can't eat
Can't sleep
Can't anything
It's why I need someone
And why I'll never ever get attached
Or say anything at all

I'm letting her down
And I wish I didn't have to
I curled up in her lap
On Christmas Eve
And fell asleep
And she let me
Because she's scared
And I don't care
Because I was in her lap
And slept
And when I slept in till noon
Two days later
She was happy
Because she knew I felt safe